| Hi Guys, Very good site here I think. I am not really bi-sexual but since I am 'into' certain things with guys I thought it best to put that and then explain. First I really get off on being spanked by another guy and verbally abused. I am experimenting with other forms of kink. I guess you could say I got into this early on in Junior High but then did not do it at all for a long time. I had some buddies who played around basically because we were in a smaller town (very conservative / religious) and no girls would do anything at all. So the guys did lol. I really dont think any were gay or even bi now that I think about it. I think we wanted to see how certain things felt and once we did we liked them. I know that as each guy ended up with a girl in high school that would do it, they never seemed to want a guy to do it. Really after that none of this was discussed again. I myself never did or wanted to do anything until about two years ago. Still back in Junior High and the first maybe year of High School I learned a few things ...lol Most everything we did was pretty vanilla though that changed around the 8 th grade. One of the guys that messed around had either told an older cousin about it or the older cousin had in some way found out what we were doing. He was probably 18 -19 and he was pretty cool. I do not know now if he and my buddy from school had planned it or if it just happened this way but he seemed to all of a sudden be hanging out with us a lot. It all came to a head when he was asked to babysit my friend for about a week (I guess) while his parents were out of town. I know it was the summer because we all would hang out late at this time since none of us were old enough to get jobs or anything. When say late I mean to around 1 or 2 in the morning. We all lived less than a five minute walk from each other so it was not a big deal to do this. So the older guy was there and he asked if any of us had seen porn. None of us had seen it except in magazines and that was very very rare even. So I totally remember him giving us some beer and then a bit latter brought up the subject again. I do not remember how or when but at some time before this we all knew he knew that we had jerked off together and had been giving each other blow jobs. He would make jokes about it, telling us about how much pussy he got (lol) but he never had done anything with us ,as far as I know and defiantly not with me. I know he would make a lot of jokes about it calling us everything from perverts to queers but I am sure now that he was the only one that brought it up. So anyway back to that night after we had been there awhile and were probably tipsy (did not take much) he said, at some point, that he had a porn and we could see it. I remember being really thrilled lol , the idea of seeing naked women and seeing exactly what they looked like naked and having sex. So he went to put it in to play it and said that he was going to make a game out of it or something. He said we all had to pay him to see it. Nobody had money really then. Again I remeber this like it was yesterday but only the older guys cousin had the 10 dollars (or whatever) to pay to see the movie. After all it was his house that the older cousin was 'babysitting' at so I guess he had the money there, but now years latter it seems very planned by both of them. So of course we were all bummed out and telling him we would pay latter and all. So he then said we could watch if each of us 'would be girls'. What he meant was that the three guy who could not pay would have to be one of the girls in the movie doing exactly what the girls were doing in the movie to he and his cousin (because he was able to pay). Of course we agreed to it but nobody even knew half of what guys and girls did ,other than oral and fucking...lol. So he had us choose what women we wanted to be as the movie began and they 'credits' showed each actress. The other two guys also chose their guy roles. Really it was pretty funny at least at first because he would stop the video tape and have the guy do what the lady was doing. I say funny because the guy had to take off his shirt and massage his tits like the ladies did etc. The first scene was two lesbians so thankfully it was not my lady part of the film. So the other two guys had to kiss and then have oral sex on each other giving each other oral instead of cunnilingus (lol). So in the the next scene mu lady part came up. The girl had gotten naked and on all fours. So of course I had to do this. Then the guy began to give her cunnilingus. My friends cousin was 'the man' in this part and I remember him making a big deal about it ... like how disgusting it was and how much he did not want to do it to me ... but when I said he did not have to at all he then decided to do it (lol again). So I am on all fours legs really apart because that how she was and he was about to give me cunnilingus. Never, and I mean NEVER did I ever expect him to lick my asshole. This is not a joke none of us even remotely suspected that people did this. I COMPLETELY remember the shock of this when he did it. At first I thought he 'missed' then I realized he was doing this on purpose. All of the guys were shocked and I was like 'no way' but he and everyone there were telling me I had to do it. I think the other guys were just completely curious about this and could not believe what they were seeing. So then I had to give him oral sex and I know I thought he had a lot of pubic hair ...even though now I know it was not that much. So then of course the guy began to fuck the girl. The guy was very verbal about it in the movie and my friends cousin was the same. I know when he tried to enter me it hurt like hell and I doubt if it was more than a inch or half inch in but it hurt so much I refused. I think he must have done this to a lot of guys because he seemed to 'get it' and said it was 'OK' or something but if I could not do that I would have to get my ass beat instead. So he either took off his belt or got one and spanked me. I know I climaxed after about the fourth wack. This had never happened to me before ... I mean cumming without touching myself. (The funny thing is I had heard of guys getting erection like this before. About a couple of years before I went to Junior High the coach was actually allowed to give a guy spankings in PE class. This was outlawed or banned .. I am not sure .. right before we got there. Still many of my friends had stories to tell of this and guys reactions to it ..- from what I understand it was a real humiliating thing because it happened in the locker room right as the guy had gotten undressed .. in both schools we were required to take showers no exceptions .. but like I said I never saw this for myself I only heard about it).The guys all were laughing and he was just name calling but it was cool. So then in the movie the guy came and shot it on the girls face. I did not want that either so he told me something like to get my pussy up again. I thought he was going to try to fuck me again but instead he climaxed on my ass. Not much happened after that I guess, I remember the other guys jerking off and that was it I think. Of course he was around after that and seemed to be servicing every guy in our group. I learned I really enjoyed having my butt and asshole licked and to be honest he did it real well. Of course the bad of this is that once twice has a girl dont this to me. :( Also he did eventually fuck me. When it happened I was really horney from him eating my ass so I can not say it hurt much and he cam as fast as I did which was probably under a minute. All of this was great and fun and happened probably weekly. The last time was just about when we were getting girls and my friends cousin must have known we were not going to be into it much longer. There were four or five of us at my friends (the older cousins' younger cousins house)house that had a pool .. rare for us to have a pool. We were swimming naked which I am sure he put us up to. Eventually it turned sexual but I do not think any of my buddies were really into it .. maybe we had outgrown it. Still it was going on and then all of a sudden two friends of the older cousin were at the house. They had brought beer and pot (I remember how I thought it smelled like crap). We were not naked or anything as they arrived because we had all seen the car and just figured it was friends of my friends parents stopping by to visit and not realizing they were still at work. They seemed so old to me at that time even though they were probably not more than 35. So pretty fast we were all swimming naked with these guys and then they went into the house and my friends older cousin would take either one or two of us at a time to go into a room with them. I dont know what happened with all the guys specifically but with me they started touching me up and down and then sucking both my dick and my ass. I know it was pretty fast,almost more like a physical exam than sex, probably they wanted to do it but were nervous to get caught. The weird things is it was all done virtually without any words. Maybe this is what turned me off I do not know. Then the older cousin came in and said something to the effect that i had a great ass. He then put his dick in me but I am sure he did not cum. Then one of the older guys did the same and seemed to cum when the other guy did it he probably made two thrusts and it hurt and I said no and that was it. At some point before the older cousin had said if I did not do it he was going to tell and these guys probably would to up to calling my parents anonymously. I think though he knew not to push it too hard. I went out back to the pool and the last guy went in and I am sure they also fucked him because the older cousin came out and said for us all to clean out our used pussies. He always talked like this so we had taken it like a big joke but somehow it was very different for us all that day .. I am really sure all the guys felt that way except for my friend (the younger cousin I mean .. in fact I know he did this a few more times with either these new friends or other new friends because he wanted me to do it to and I said no way). We all felt weird about the whole thing. Nothing like this had happened before and I think we all thought of what we all had done sexually before as our private joke, this day that had kind of disappeared. I would not say I felt dirty or 'used' or anything and the guys did not hurt me in anyway. I think that with the other guys being there made it like feel like sex while before even though it was sex it seemed like just a game. I know that it turned me off a lot and I really avoided the older cousin from them on (I am sure he knew it too) and then, like I said, we all got girls and were much more interested in getting them to do things. Its funny but one hand job from 'tits' was more interesting than getting a real blowjob from a buddy. However except for that one day I never regretted anything we all did. Really, I did not regret that one day so much as I just did not enjoy it that much. So I did not spend much time thinking of all of that and got married and had kids. I never dwelled on this at all and maybe it will seem odd but I doubt I ever thought of it more than 3-4 times in the last 10 years ..lol. However, about two years ago I was watching 'OZ' on DVD and in some part a guy is getting verbally abused by another guy .. the guy calling him his bitch and cunt or something. I dont know if now I am making this up or it is in the flick but I think he told him to spread his ass so he could see 'the pussy' before he fucked him. It got me off mentally a lot. I mean the guy having this control over him. Its funny because really it seems to be what kind of turned me off to the whole thing. So the bottom line for all of this is I am not attracted to a guys parts. I mean I would not buy a magazine or flick to see a guys penis or ass or anything he 'has'. That being said I am turned on by what a guy can do to me. I mean spanking, verbal abuse , making feel like a cheap slut. Also I like being fucked I am not going to lie about it. I love the way I shoot of when this is done to me. Unfortunately, I do not get into blowing a guy or kissing at all. I never liked giving blow jobs and did them just to get them when I was a kid. So I dont know how to classify all of that ... lol. So here I am looking for guys who understand and are OK with my situation. Guys that like any or all of the following: spanking, verbal abuse, giving anal oral and up to fucking. I have never written this before and its funny to think about it now but since some time has passed I can see how it all played out now :) |